the theory of juggling life

I am afraid i am going to have trust issues in the future. So far, in my degree year, I never thought of any of my coursemates as my real friends. So whenever they cant complete their part of the group assignment, I just do it all. It's okay, doesn't hurt that much. Just lose trust and a bit angry after that. But this week, when finally I regard these two people as my friends among my coursemates, they disappoint me. Cant finish their part of the assignment. I have to take it all again. What to do? Leader, I distribute, they cant do. Either I do it or pass it up incomplete which of course I prefer the first option. But you see, when you regard a person as a friend and if they do this to you, push problems to you, it hurts even more. Not just angry, fucking pissed off is what I am feeling.

How can they have the heart to say things like,

"hard la, i cant do. you help me do la. i do other things"

if the assignment is easy, then it is not an assignment! and they expect me to do it. how am i any different a student from them? Fuck the world!

for this recent milling project i am working on, one of my friend said

"I dont think we can do milling by this week"

of course there is a reason why i want to do it this week. bcoz for next week, many people will be waiting for the machine and its a waste of time to go and wait for your turn or fight with people for the machine. In the end, i finished both our parts without telling him and when i asked him, how is the programming? he did only half and havent even simulated it. Then i told him i finished it already. he replied,"walao, how you do so fast o?" why dont he reply me "walao, why i so slow?"

and for a student, definitely your first priority is to finish your degree right?

this friend of mine is so obsessed with stock market now that he dont even listen when i talk to him. having to repeat and explained over and over again pissed me off even more. and the reason why he cant finish the programming is bcoz of his obsession.

okay lets say u want to learn and play stock trading. have some balance on your studies also for god's sake. For example, when you juggle 3 balls, do you only pay specific attention to one ball?

I am sure the other will fall.

I hate the biggest bullshit of all when you say you got no time then I found out from others that you can go yumcha (drink and chat with friends). Bloody bastard I tell you...I am damn pissed with this shit. Dont give me this shit. It doesnt make sense. You got no time, I got time? Fuck off!

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Thanks to all these shits, I overworked myself and I am sick now.

If this continues, I think I will end up an isolated person who cant work with anyone else cause I cant trust anybody anymore. The more you trust, the more it hurts when you are disappointed.

P/s: telling me you are sorry you can finish on time only makes me feel disgusted. Unless you tell me you are sorry you went yumcha, or obsessed with wateva shit your are obsessed with until you couldnt finsh the stuff distributed to you then I will accept.

24 hours diarrhoea...

Last two nights I had chicken rendang for my dinner and right after that, I was going to the toilet. I thought it was normal cause the serai in the rendang is supposed to make go easier...

After a few times of going in and out of the toilet, I was still telling myself "it's the serai"...then there is this stomachache like something twirling in my stomach. Couldnt get myself to sleep and I was still going to the toilet till about 4 am. The last was about 5 am before I got to sleep. Then about 9 in the morning, I went to the toilet again and continued sleeping till 12. Woke up and went to toilet again before I went to eat lunch. Went to TOILET again after lunch and a few more times after that until dinner...this time I only drank warm barley and a taufufa for dinner. Later, I went down to the minimart to get a loaf of bread and a bottle of marmalade jam and ate it as dinner. Was still going to toilet till about 9 pm...After that, my stomach was still hurting but didnt went to toilet anymore. I guess I have clear every single piece of shiet in my system, LOL.

Conclusion: Having a diarrhoe for 24 hours is not good especially for my butt-hole. IT HURTS LIKE HELL AFTER 5 TIMES OF GOING TO THE TOILET. And I went a total of more than 20 times to the toilet...And the bloody headache I got because of it also...

Lesson learnt: I guess I wont be touching rendang for quite some time....

I hate having a running nose

Just last week I had a cold and recover from it...

Yesterday...the COLD CAME BACK! WTH!!
Started with sneezing then headache then watery nose and eyes...Shiet ah...
The headache and the sneezing part is what I cant stand...Well, it is 90% of the flu...
I hate getting flu....F.....lu-ed up
Haha...

The longest time you have slept before...

For me, the longest I tried was thirteen hours which is a day and an hour of sleep. Haha...

Yesterday I almost got a fever. Luckily, today my body didnt give in and instead, I am having a fatigue.

Wondering how long will I sleep tonight...hehe

Lacking energy

This few days feel very tired.

Think bcoz of my diet...

Forget it...

One-sided and long-range.
Bad combination.
Tired edi.

Time waits for no one

The day before, in the afternoon I suddenly caught a cold. Started sneezing all over the place... I thought it was just a regular cold where I will be sneezing like hell the whole day and it will get better by the next day.

Bout 5 pm when I was having a class in CLCR0001 (A1), I was sneezing every ten seconds which made me have to pardon myself from the lecture and went back to my apartment. I touched my head and damn! Fever...boiled some water and made myself some medicine (extremely hate to take coz of its bitterness and cooling effect at the same time). If you just chew the medicine you are definitely going to sneeze coz of the cooling effect. Had bread and jem that night.

This morning, I woke up feeling slightly better but still sick. I woke up to pee countless of times last night...In the afternoon I felt so weak and the headache is killing me, so I went to take a nap. COULDNT sleep at all! My body didnt move but my mind was awake. I could hear every conversation taking place in the next room. I was so darn frustrated coz I am using precious time to rest (tonight I gotta study for quiz tomorrow). I woke up and put my clothes to wash for the second round (half automatic washing machine). Then I tried to sleep again...

Again, I couldnt really sleep but this time I didnt get frustrated over it. I simply accepted the fact that I couldnt sleep but at least let my body rest by not moving. After that, I woke up and my head felt better. All the time I was trying to sleep I wished that time would stop until I fall asleep then only continue so that I can maximize my sleeping time but time waits for no one...