Random words + Chuck + Jay Chou

The dead walls I pondered upon

Chest pressing tightly against my knees

Through every limbs the shiver ran wildly

Distant light shot through the darkness

Killing the cold air with a rush of comfort

The walls were once again alive.

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Today, I am damn lazy to do any studying so instead I caught up with my "Chuck". It is now into the forth season with new enemy volkram or something like that, which has something to do with his mother, a new BUYMORE, still tackling lies about the spy thingy with his now pregnant sister, and trying to communicate more effectively with Sarah, his super spy girlfriend.

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Also, today I tried singing some of Jay Chou's songs by finding the pinyin for the songs and his songs I must admit, are not easy to sing. After about 3-4 songs, my throat kind of hurts probably because I strained it too much. But, I still continued with a flatter tone of course, had to take it easy. Then, it occured to me, what do these songs of his means? After I found the translated versions of the songs, I was impressed. The songs are very meaningful, not your typical "I miss you", "I love you", "I want you back" kind of lyrics. I was speechless at how he showed his feelings in the lyrics. WOO~~

Okay...raining now. SLEEP!

the theory of juggling life

I am afraid i am going to have trust issues in the future. So far, in my degree year, I never thought of any of my coursemates as my real friends. So whenever they cant complete their part of the group assignment, I just do it all. It's okay, doesn't hurt that much. Just lose trust and a bit angry after that. But this week, when finally I regard these two people as my friends among my coursemates, they disappoint me. Cant finish their part of the assignment. I have to take it all again. What to do? Leader, I distribute, they cant do. Either I do it or pass it up incomplete which of course I prefer the first option. But you see, when you regard a person as a friend and if they do this to you, push problems to you, it hurts even more. Not just angry, fucking pissed off is what I am feeling.

How can they have the heart to say things like,

"hard la, i cant do. you help me do la. i do other things"

if the assignment is easy, then it is not an assignment! and they expect me to do it. how am i any different a student from them? Fuck the world!

for this recent milling project i am working on, one of my friend said

"I dont think we can do milling by this week"

of course there is a reason why i want to do it this week. bcoz for next week, many people will be waiting for the machine and its a waste of time to go and wait for your turn or fight with people for the machine. In the end, i finished both our parts without telling him and when i asked him, how is the programming? he did only half and havent even simulated it. Then i told him i finished it already. he replied,"walao, how you do so fast o?" why dont he reply me "walao, why i so slow?"

and for a student, definitely your first priority is to finish your degree right?

this friend of mine is so obsessed with stock market now that he dont even listen when i talk to him. having to repeat and explained over and over again pissed me off even more. and the reason why he cant finish the programming is bcoz of his obsession.

okay lets say u want to learn and play stock trading. have some balance on your studies also for god's sake. For example, when you juggle 3 balls, do you only pay specific attention to one ball?

I am sure the other will fall.

I hate the biggest bullshit of all when you say you got no time then I found out from others that you can go yumcha (drink and chat with friends). Bloody bastard I tell you...I am damn pissed with this shit. Dont give me this shit. It doesnt make sense. You got no time, I got time? Fuck off!

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Thanks to all these shits, I overworked myself and I am sick now.

If this continues, I think I will end up an isolated person who cant work with anyone else cause I cant trust anybody anymore. The more you trust, the more it hurts when you are disappointed.

P/s: telling me you are sorry you can finish on time only makes me feel disgusted. Unless you tell me you are sorry you went yumcha, or obsessed with wateva shit your are obsessed with until you couldnt finsh the stuff distributed to you then I will accept.

The other day

Two days ago, I called for a plumber to come take a look at a pipe, sewage pipe the one that is at the ceiling in the apartment bathroom. The reason is due to some leakage from a cap on the piping and that leaking fluid coming down...stinks like dried pee that has been left for weeks! Damn the stench. So this plumber came over at about 6pm that day.

He spoke very politely to me but he spoke in mandarin so a few stuff I have to guess. haha. Anyway, he got to work by looking at the cap then proceed to taping and changing it. Before that, he saw another leakage from the tank for the toilet bowl into the toilet bowl. Then he asked me how much our water bill was and said that the fault lies in this leak into the toilet bowl. So after replacing the cap he proceed to look at the tank of the toilet bowl. When he looked at the stuff he wasnt sure how to remove the pump. After analyzing, he asked his Indon worker to get him his tool, a plier of some kind. When his worker returned, he returned with a handful of tools. The plumber cursed and scolded him asking what was the extra stuff for. Then the plumber asked his worker to get him a particular tools he called, "kiap zi". There was like four tools on the floor, so the worker, not knowing what the hell was his boss referring to, tried to guess which tool his boss wanted by holding on to one of them. The boss cursed again and scolded him and proceed to point on the tool he was referring to. After that drama, the plumber managed to remove the pump and then tried to figure out how it works. After removing this and that he got to the washer (seems like almost everything to do with leaking can be solved by changing the washer or applying the white tape on the groove of the threads for fastening eg. the cap just now). He removed the washer and cursed again saying, "kaninna pukimak caucibai, not the correct washer also can simply put in here.........jialat lo, dont have this type of washer". He went into deep thoughts and finally went back down to his vehicle to see if any alternative is available.

Meanwhile, I spoke to his worker and found out that he has been here since 1981 when he was 18 years old. Now of course, he doesnt have a proper working permit. He added that back in those days, if he saw a police officer, the police officer will just ask him to "jalan baik-baik" (walk properly) but now....(he smiled while gesturing his hand like someone asking for money). He said usually they ask for RM500 but after negotiation, probably it can be reduced to RM200-RM100.

Enough with that, the plumber came back with I think the same washer and tried to bend it a bit here and there so that the washer can sort of better block the flow of water. He struggled while trying to put back the pump into one piece. Seems like he hasnt deal with this type of pump before (the pump where you push the button down and it flushes the toilet. Most of the older pumps are the ones where you need to pull or apply torque on the lever). After clumsily attaching it back, he fixed the pump back into the tank. Surprisingly, it managed to stop the leakage and I bet he sighed a big relieve after managing to solve the problem by a fluke. He left soon after.

I went to took a bath after that in that bathroom, and found out that the toilet leaked again after I flushed it. I went WTF and opened the cover of the tank to look at it. After pulling this and that, here and there, I found out the plumber didnt attach the pump back properly. I can pull the whole pump out just like that! haha...nonsense. By looking at how he removed the pump just now, I got an idea on how it was supposed to go and unscrew this and that and managed to put the pump back together, properly this time, and it doesnt leak anymore! haha...wonderful, I thought. I closed the tank back and proceed bathe with a happy smile on my face.

The thing is, the plumber reminds me of my previous boss (placing tiles on floors and walls) I worked with when I was in Form 4. Both cursed almost the same way. Once they curse, it goes on for 3, 4, maybe 5 words not like what I normally use (fuck, damn, shit). Theirs are like macibai puki lanjiao etc etc. Seriously holy shit and I guess its already normal for them cause they do it subconsciously. Whenever shit turns up, they just shoot it out. Another similarity is the politeness they omit when speaking with clients but the harshness when speaking with their own workers. Last time, I only worked for 2 months and 2 weeks and I felt so glad when I finally finished working. It can be very demoralizing when you get scolded everyday like you are a piece of trash. The worker is where the channel their frustrations to, and where do their worker channel their frustrations? In this time, the phrase ignorance is bliss takes place. Of course you dont turn a deaf ear to everything that is said. Ignore the rude words and find the meaning behind why are you getting scolded so that you try not to be scolded again.

Woah, type damn lot of stuff already. Gotta go back to studying for my test tomorrow afternoon. Adios.

Efficiency

I have only just a minute,

Only 60 seconds in it,

Forced upon me-can't refuse it

Didn't seek it, didn't choose it.

But it is up to me to use it.

I must suffer if I lose it.

Give account if I abuse it,

Just a tiny little minute-

But eternity is in it.

(anonymous)

taken from the textbook Thermodynamics : An Engineering Approach Sixth Edition

Somethings you just cant remember

There are times when you get a view of something personally and then promised yourself to make sure you do that or never do that in the future.

Well, everyone forgets. So, for me to remember, I created a column just for that, so that I wont repeat things done by others that I shouldnt and I will repeat things that I should.

A friendly reminder

Earlier on, my small bro came and told me about how his teacher is such a great coach for his house in school. I let him continue...and I got so worked up after that.

His teacher is a total bitch...let me tell you why.

- this is the reason she gave the boy who was looking at the other house practicing, Why are you looking over there? they are losers. Their house colour is the colour of shit.

- this is what she said out loud (everything she said she said it out loud), they dont need to practice already because they are going to lose anyway. Why bother practicing?

And my small brother was so happy he told me, "my teacher damn pro man"....

Well, I thought otherwise...of course I gave my small brother a piece of my mind.

1. I told him, your teacher is a bitch (this word is common vocab used in our conversations)

2. He shouldnt be happy watching someone else criticizing others.

3. I asked him if his friend was on the other house, how would he feel. He didnt answer me.

4. I told him if someone did that to him what would he do. He reply, "just ignore la" which I dont believe he can do.

5. I call him selfish (should be insensitive...but the words came out too fast) for not being able to consider other's feelings.

after that, he went offline...must be pissed at me for ruining his "happy day".

If he grows up to be like his teacher. I am so gonna smack him.

The friendly reminder is: dont treat people like shit eventhough you are better in THAT field. Or else, you will be in my "He/she is a bitch" list.

Nice read

After about 1 and a half day, I finished my first book out of two. Unlike my last visit to the library, the day before, there were a whole lot more choices of books to read. My mom said its probably because the holidays were over and everyone is returning their books. This book tells a story about a child of an aristocrat and also a child possessing the Gift passed down through his family, denying both wealth and Gift leaving him to fend for himself. He was pardoned by the king and forced to work under Sir Alaric, the person in charge of protecting the throne of England against enemies. Just when he was about to retire with the gold he accumulated and a horse as a gift, he was robbed by a woman. From there the story pick up to tales of deception, love and finally fighting dark magic. The setting is in the past where handguns can only fire a bullet at a time before needing to be reloaded and the main transport were associated with horses.

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This is another unrelated part. Word of advice to whoever. Watch the tongue for what comes out of it might be stingingly bitter to the ears when one is internally unstable.

Tete's theory of toilet relativity

The higher the floor, the cleaner the toilet.

This week can be considered a crazy week.

Monday - assignment due

Tuesday - another assignment due

Wednesday - midterm test

Thursday - tutorial test

Friday - ....TGIF "THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY"

2012...for my knee

2012...it left me yawning here and there but during the graphics part...WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW!

Halfway through I went to the toilet together with my roomie and on the way back, I slipped and fell and rolled one round before stopping. Why? Because I was running! No wonder parents always remind their kids not to run. Landed on my knee pretty hard but luckily not on my knee cap.

notice the white ring around the scratch. the whole part swell up

The whole time after that, I was holding on to my knee in the cinema and massaged it all the way back. At home, I continued massaging it then applied a cup of cold water on it (my cup is the stainless steel type) and thanks to all that, it didnt bruise badly this morning. But it still hurts!!!!!

Kids, dont run after getting out of the toilet ESPECIALLY WITH 6 RINGGIT SLIPPERS ON!

Impermanence

After about 5 hours of discussion in Moral Studies, no other religion can give a reason for the suffering of human beings except for Buddha's teaching. Buddha says that we suffer because of our attachments. Very true indeed...

This few fays, gathering with those who went training and knowing that certain people is leaving to chase their dreams really reminded me of impermanence. Those doing FYP and leaving soon...haih...I am suffering already...haha...

How not to be attached...everyday also see these people's face...everyday talk cock also talk with these people...everyday disturb also disturb these people...everyday kena disturb also by these people...

To not be attached is to not be human...Buddhahood is definitely not human...and then there is a certain part that wants to feel human...which is another attachment...

Like what someone always says, "apa la"...

Another theory on light and time

Today I really wished I can move at the speed of light. Then I will be able to do finish up my assignments faster...

Then I had another thought...even if my body can move at the speed of light, my mind which is controlling my body must be able to process at the speed of light also. If not, my body will still move according to the speed of my mind.

Same thing goes the other way around. If I am able to think very faster but my body cant support it, I will still react according to my body's capability.

Then, to complete more stuff while consuming less amount of time I need a quick mind and a quick body to go with...

Something I read yesterday

Wanted to summarize it but I guess it's better for you to read it yourself
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HUNDRED PERCENT

A boy and a girl were playing together. The boy had a collection of marbles. The girl had some sweets with her. The boy told the girl that he will give her all his marbles in exchange for her sweets. The girl agreed. The boy kept the biggest and the most beautiful marble aside and gave the rest to the girl. The girl gave him all her sweets as she had promised. That night, the girl slept peacefully. But the boy couldn't sleep as he kept wondering if the girl had hidden some sweets from him the way he had hidden his best marble.

Moral of the story:
If you don't give your hundred percent in a relationship,
you'll always keep doubting
if the other person
has given his/her hundred percent
This is applicable for any relationship
like love, friendship, employer-employee relationship etc.,

Give your hundred percent to everything you do and sleep peacefully "

"It's nice to be an important person, but it's more important to be a nice person

Fisherman's knot

As you can see, to create a this super strong knot, both strings need to be tied. Tying it on one side only doesnt do the job. For those who understand the hidden meaning...it's not your fault. For those who doesnt, you will understand it when the time is right.

Things always present themselves at the weirdest of time

This week is the week for this semester's FINAL exam and guess what I did last night...
DOTA!! WTF!!! haha...

Well DOTA has its teachings as well. After losing like bullshit yesterday, I figured that It is not the enemy, but a question of whether you are prepared enough for it

Not sure if it is true but a game can reveal one's true self. The way they play MIGHT reflect on them. Havent confirm this yet so....it is still not a conclusion.

Good Luck to all em em eww-ians for the Finals!

Dont Worry Be Healthy

It is actually a title of a book. This is what I found applicable during my previous two days of miserable life. I got sick and being happy and not worrying too much about it actually sped up my recovery quite a lot.

The book talks about accepting the sickness as a whole not rejecting it and let it go. Accept and let it go. Sounds familiar exactly like a buddhist point of view. Feel and accept something entirely and let it go. The lesser the attachment the lesser the suffering O.O If what I said is screwed then please correct me LoL coz in the end I am a free thinker, not an expert in Buddhism teachings eventhough I find my thoughts are almost parallel to Buddhism.

SO...DONT WORRY AND BE HAPPY!

Life is a stage...all you are doing is an act

Sitting there at the booth all alone wasn't so bad after all. Why?
The indistinct chattering wasn't too loud that it was disturbing and not too soft that it was creepy.
A few people passing by, smilling, trying to look graceful walking which reminded me of this sentence that I wanted to think about..."Life is a stage"

Everyone has their own personal stage. Some perform for themselves and others do it to attract others which often leads to competition for fame, thus jealousy.

Everyone is also a judge as well as an audience to everyone else. Some applaude, some leaves you alone and some criticizes; yeah..."boos"

The purpose is to give everyone a performance that is acceptable to the majority and climb yourself up to be the "top star". And when it is not accepted, you make your performance "unknown" to others.

Some puts on a mask, some has natural attraction, some uses deception, some...merely shows us the truth. Which is which? It is impossible to know. Only the performer knows...

It was a bit strange when I heard it at first when I was a kiddo but now when I have more wisdom...hey! it perfectly fits in every way. Life IS a stage...Now the following question is "why must it be this way?" Why must we perform? Is there something at the very end of our "performance career" that is there for us to achieve like an award? Well, the answer will have to wait...

Nice words (thanks to mao mao for sending this to me)

Read Each One Carefully and Think About It a Second or Two

小心讀每一個，再用一兩秒想一想

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰。

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚，值得的那一位，不會要你哭。

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
那人不是你所想般愛你，但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手，觸動你心靈的人。

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
掛念一個人最差的方式，就是你坐在他身旁，而知道你不能擁有他。

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
就算你不快樂也不要皺眉，因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
在世界裡你可能只是某人，但對某人你可能是全世界。

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人，讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
不要因為完結而哭，要為曾經發生而微笑。

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人，你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人。

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前，先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自己。

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.
不要太努力去找，最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現。