the theory of juggling life

I am afraid i am going to have trust issues in the future. So far, in my degree year, I never thought of any of my coursemates as my real friends. So whenever they cant complete their part of the group assignment, I just do it all. It's okay, doesn't hurt that much. Just lose trust and a bit angry after that. But this week, when finally I regard these two people as my friends among my coursemates, they disappoint me. Cant finish their part of the assignment. I have to take it all again. What to do? Leader, I distribute, they cant do. Either I do it or pass it up incomplete which of course I prefer the first option. But you see, when you regard a person as a friend and if they do this to you, push problems to you, it hurts even more. Not just angry, fucking pissed off is what I am feeling.

How can they have the heart to say things like,

"hard la, i cant do. you help me do la. i do other things"

if the assignment is easy, then it is not an assignment! and they expect me to do it. how am i any different a student from them? Fuck the world!

for this recent milling project i am working on, one of my friend said

"I dont think we can do milling by this week"

of course there is a reason why i want to do it this week. bcoz for next week, many people will be waiting for the machine and its a waste of time to go and wait for your turn or fight with people for the machine. In the end, i finished both our parts without telling him and when i asked him, how is the programming? he did only half and havent even simulated it. Then i told him i finished it already. he replied,"walao, how you do so fast o?" why dont he reply me "walao, why i so slow?"

and for a student, definitely your first priority is to finish your degree right?

this friend of mine is so obsessed with stock market now that he dont even listen when i talk to him. having to repeat and explained over and over again pissed me off even more. and the reason why he cant finish the programming is bcoz of his obsession.

okay lets say u want to learn and play stock trading. have some balance on your studies also for god's sake. For example, when you juggle 3 balls, do you only pay specific attention to one ball?

I am sure the other will fall.

I hate the biggest bullshit of all when you say you got no time then I found out from others that you can go yumcha (drink and chat with friends). Bloody bastard I tell you...I am damn pissed with this shit. Dont give me this shit. It doesnt make sense. You got no time, I got time? Fuck off!

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Thanks to all these shits, I overworked myself and I am sick now.

If this continues, I think I will end up an isolated person who cant work with anyone else cause I cant trust anybody anymore. The more you trust, the more it hurts when you are disappointed.

P/s: telling me you are sorry you can finish on time only makes me feel disgusted. Unless you tell me you are sorry you went yumcha, or obsessed with wateva shit your are obsessed with until you couldnt finsh the stuff distributed to you then I will accept.

Void

Happy Father's Day have always been plain to me. Every year on this day, I feel nothing. My father is not someone I am proud of and has been like a ghost throughout my life. So, when everyone gets psyched about Father's Day and what they should get for their fathers. I feel a bit left out. One thing my father taught me is to not become like him.

basket

Why are some people so darn stupid...or they probably just wants to annoy me so that makes them assholes. today, its particularly about this one jackass, the same jackass in my previouspost and another previous one. Man, this guy has been irritating me a lot.

This time, after compiling the questionnaire for our research and making them into graph and tables, I assigned my group members to certain question for them to elaborate and reason on it. This guy mailed me back asking, "what and where is data 1 and data 2 in my word file?". I was like OH MY GOD! IS HE THAT IGNORANT AND BLIND? I ALREADY PURPOSELY PUT EACH PIE CHART AND TABLE INTO A WORD FILE SO THAT EVERYONE CAN DOWNLOAD ONLY THEIR PART AND FOCUS ON IT. THIS BASKET CAN COME AND ASK ME WHERE IS HIS DATA.

This is what I gave him, (there is a title but after print screen, it disappeared)

If he sees this and dont call it data, I dont know what is data anymore...All the lab reports I have been doing in my past 3 years are not lab reports anymore. I shouldnt be here because I dont know what is data.

Seriously, I get so worked up teaming up with such groupmates. PLEASE OH PLEASE FOR PEOPLE LIKE THIS, DONT EVEN APPROACH ME NEXT TIME FOR ASSIGNMENTS. I DONT WANT TO GET HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE THIS YOUNG!

A new label added for these type of people

hey tay

listen, me and $%^& just got back from holidays, so we are working in the grading part, tell us how to write about the grading.... like , what to write, you just give some idea to us about it...... like shoud we start with the introduction of grading or just hit to the quoes directly and start writing about it ? and one page is enough???
reply soon

(lazy and stuck-up)

There you go...2 weeks of time and he sent me this one day before the meeting (deadline). If they are not assholes, I dont know what to call them anymore. Damn this is frustrating...International students...just some shit-ass rich people coming here to waste others' time. Dont agree??? PROVE ME OTHERWISE!

NIghtmare

shit...last night was the worst ever!

i dreamt something, a ghost, those ju-on type one with sharp eyes and mouth, was chasing me. The smile on that thing was eerie, it scares the crap out of me. I was running in the darkness when suddenly it caught me. then I find myself immobilize in front of a candle fire shaking my hands and turning them from the palm to the back of my hand and repeating that motion. At that point, I could feel my right arm slip off my bolster and took the opportunity to forcefully wake myself up. I was thankful that it was a dream and quickly continued to try and sleep again because through previous experiences, if I wait too long I might end up wide awake. Then it happpened all again, from the chasing to the running in darkness and catching me then shaking my hands in front of a candle...FUAKKK!!! I jumped up from my bed, this time taking my time to calm myself down. I heard someone from the other apartments talking and gosh...it really relieved me. I told myself if I go to sleep again in this way, I will surely end up with that dream again. So, I tried to find something more powerful, more influence to sidetrack my brains. I thought of the homework I have to finish tomorrow, thought about it hard and suddenly stopped, blank. This time, I went to sleep without any ghost chasing me stuff anymore.

DARN GHOST! I havent even watch the latest ju-on!

A friendly reminder

Earlier on, my small bro came and told me about how his teacher is such a great coach for his house in school. I let him continue...and I got so worked up after that.

His teacher is a total bitch...let me tell you why.

- this is the reason she gave the boy who was looking at the other house practicing, Why are you looking over there? they are losers. Their house colour is the colour of shit.

- this is what she said out loud (everything she said she said it out loud), they dont need to practice already because they are going to lose anyway. Why bother practicing?

And my small brother was so happy he told me, "my teacher damn pro man"....

Well, I thought otherwise...of course I gave my small brother a piece of my mind.

1. I told him, your teacher is a bitch (this word is common vocab used in our conversations)

2. He shouldnt be happy watching someone else criticizing others.

3. I asked him if his friend was on the other house, how would he feel. He didnt answer me.

4. I told him if someone did that to him what would he do. He reply, "just ignore la" which I dont believe he can do.

5. I call him selfish (should be insensitive...but the words came out too fast) for not being able to consider other's feelings.

after that, he went offline...must be pissed at me for ruining his "happy day".

If he grows up to be like his teacher. I am so gonna smack him.

The friendly reminder is: dont treat people like shit eventhough you are better in THAT field. Or else, you will be in my "He/she is a bitch" list.

8 to 10 pm class...=.=

before that, yesterday i went to play basketball. While dribbling towards the rim...jumping towards the rim to be more precise, I lifted the ball up but my left elbow caught something...the opponent's teeth! when I looked back at my elbow after I unexpectedly managed to lucky shot that ball into the rim, I realised a piece of skin with flesh was out of place and there is a hole there. Then blood started oozing out. the blood was thick, dark and viscous. Ignoring it, I continued playing and the blood dried up. when i went back to get a better look at it in the mirror...WTF...its like his two front teeth sunk right into my elbow! not sure whether his teeth is alright...but DAMN, this is definitely gonna leave a scar. I am gonna tell my kids next time, "someone bit your daddy here last time".

This week, is subject registration week. according to schedule, you are supposed to register you subjects you are taking next sem. mine was this wednesday. looking at the timetable for next sem i got furious. WHY? I got classes on mondays and tuesdays at 8pm to 10pm. WTF time is that? Never had a class at that kind of time slot before. It sucks even more if you have morning class, then afternoon, and night then next morning...Thankfully I didnt have that shitty timetable. But night time really sucks. night time is when i do my tutorials, go through my assignments or studies...if it is 8-10...what more can i do after 10? will be tired by then. MMU is accepting more students every year without having enough venue for lectures =.=

Okay, lets say i just take the night classes and swallow it. there, end of story. what freaking irritates me even more is that on friday, i dont have any class (unless i have lab) the whole morning and suddenly i have one at 6 pm in the evening...It is an hour class! OMG! one hour class stopping me from going back to my hometown 4-5 hours earlier...it is like asking me to skip that class...that's not all...you know fridays...muslim prayers...ALL THE CLASS STARTS 30 MINUTES LATER THAN SCHEDULED. meaning instead of 6 pm, its gonna start at 6.30 pm =.=

FTW!

Crazy workload - Dr.Nabil

Taking design this sem.

to cut everything short...

3 main test - quiz 1, midterm, quiz 2

5 assignments - 2 individual, 3 group

2 3 tutorial tests

1 final exam

all in short sem (8 weeks)

2012...for my knee

2012...it left me yawning here and there but during the graphics part...WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW!

Halfway through I went to the toilet together with my roomie and on the way back, I slipped and fell and rolled one round before stopping. Why? Because I was running! No wonder parents always remind their kids not to run. Landed on my knee pretty hard but luckily not on my knee cap.

notice the white ring around the scratch. the whole part swell up

The whole time after that, I was holding on to my knee in the cinema and massaged it all the way back. At home, I continued massaging it then applied a cup of cold water on it (my cup is the stainless steel type) and thanks to all that, it didnt bruise badly this morning. But it still hurts!!!!!

Kids, dont run after getting out of the toilet ESPECIALLY WITH 6 RINGGIT SLIPPERS ON!

Not everything is what you think it will be

Just saw my results and damn I felt so disappointed. Not that I didnt put in effort in studying. I dont know...It just sucked real bad.

It took me one sem to pull my cgpa up to first class and one sem to drop my cgpa back to second upper. So damn sad man now...

I thought I did quite well in Eng Maths 3 and fluid dynamics but it seems that I was totally wrong. Got B- for the first and B for the latter. Even the Materials Engineering which I thought was a goner, I got B+ for it...WTF man...wtf...

The only subject supporting me was Basic management, accounting and economics...Lucky I got A for it....but come on...I am doing engineering and I couldnt get good results for my core subjects...this type of results can make someone feel so darn pathetic...

Oh yeah...forgot one more...Intro to dont know what power shit etc...also got B. =.=

You dont get scared till you see your own grave dug before you

Damn...I studied for a few minutes and ended up doing other things (games, browsing, walk around, sleeping, etc) for hours...I dont know why but once I look at my notes, my eyes get watery and I start to yawn O.O

Exam is less than a week and here I am struggling to study... I want to but I make too many excuses for myself. Time to dig my own grave and stare at it before it is dug by the exam and me being buried by the results.

Puasa till like that?

I was on my way to campus when I saw this...

When I saw the car like that, the driver (the woman standing there) was still in the car. The funny thing was that she was trying to reverse back to the road WITH 3 WHEELS touching the ground. I went like WTH WTH. There is actually a drain in between the land and the road and she was trying to reverse...the car seemed like it wanted to overturn everytime she tried reversing. Finally she gave up...Thank goodness!

After confirming its safe, I approached the car from the left side of the window and knocked on it. I signalled to the driver whether she was okay (the thumb and pointing finger touching together with the 3 other fingers pointing upwards gesture) She just nodded and continued on her phone talking to someone.

Then came 3 International Students. One of them went to the driver side and asked her to come out. Awhile after that, more people poured in on the scene and that is when I took the picture and left the scene. She is fine and she got more than enough help to get her car out of there and I got a class to attend.

Judging by the way she reacted, I think it was her own clumsiness. Most probably she dozed off an went up the side of the road. Tired people should not never drive!

Dumb Dumb people that dont know how to use the toilet

First, I did not cry nor did I LoL after my fluid midterm.

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Today my class at CLC and it was supposed to be 8am to 10 am but the lecturer released us early at 9.30am. I was in need of going to the toilet but from experience, from 9am to about 10am the toilets in CLC was under maintenance (cleaning). So I went to the neighbouring block which was FOSEE (meant for Foundation students) to find myself a toilet.

Arriving there, I met a cleaner coming out from the toilet. This was how it went...

Me: Kak, boleh saya guna? (pointing towards the toilet)

She gave me a stare and said...

Kak: Kamu dari CLC ke?

Noticing her unhappy face, I quickly replied...

Me: Tak, saya dari class sini.

Not sure what she said already but she started ranting about how she just cleaned the toilet and a few guys from CLC came and caused a blockage in the "peeing column" and the whole floor was wet...then I followed her into the toilet, and she started pointing to the column...

Kak: Sini lah, mana boleh buang benda dalam ni. Yang benda itu sudah takde (refering to the trap that keeps solids from entering the drainage) mestilah sumbat. Tengok lah lantai! Semua banjir sampai ke luar.

Me: Oh...

Then I went in to one of the section (the one that you can do big business in) and did my business while she continued complaining that other people will make a complain about the toilet and she will get caught in the fire. When I came out she wasnt there anymore.

Me: Haih...pity her...some people just dont know how to use a toilet...

Walking half way back towards CLC (CLC and FOSEE is connected by a bridge on the first floor), she called out to me with a smile on her face...

Kak: Dik! Kamu dari CLC ya...

In that split second I thought of telling her the truth which was, if I had told her I was from CLC in the beginning, she would right away shoot me without thinking. But I thought, aih..forget it...

Me: Takde la kak...Saya dari class sana (pointing towards FOSEE).

Kak (being persistent): Mana? 000 berapa? (the 000 refers to the lecture hall number)

Me (still not giving up): Saya dari atas satu tingkat, hujung sana.

Kak: Habis kenapa tak guna tandas dekat atas? Atas pun ada tandas.

At this point, thankfully I know the layout of the building cause I studied here before...

Me: Tandas kat sana ada satu itu (refering to the peeing column and doing hand gesture) saja dan satu itu (refering to the section for big business). Tadi ada banyak orang...

Finally she stopped being persistent and swallowed my story...

Kak: Tapi saya tak faham lah...kenapa budak CLC datang sini? CLC pun ada banayak tandas apa...kenapa tak pergi situ? Kenapa mesti datang sini...

Me: Setahu saya kak, kira-kira pukul sembilan hingga sepuluh, tandas kat CLC sedang dibersih. Jadi semua tandas tak boleh guna.

Kak:Oh, dia ada letak ini ya (using her mop to lean against the wall and then used her hands to draw a cross on the air).

Me: Ya, kak. Mereka tutup jadi tak boleh guna. Kakak pun boleh letak macam tu.

Kak: Kakak tak nak letak sebab kesina juga. Tapi guna pun janganlah sampai kotorkan...

Me: Mereka tak tau gunalah kak...

Kak: Tak fahamlah saya. Ada sekali, satu budak tu kakak selalu jumpa dia. Dia selalu cakap dia suka guna tandas kat sini sebab bersih.

Then she went on talking...there was one guy who is christian, studied for 5 years here, work in Singapore, still Malaysian, people like him knows how to take care of their own image, anak Malaysia...

and after that, another story about a guy who just went and piss went she was right beside him mopping. She even made the gesture LMAO!

Kak: Budak itu...kak dekat tepi saja tengah lap lantai, dia boleh...(while acting like the guy holding his wee wee). Kalau adik, adik rasa malu tak...

Me: mestilah malu.

Kak: dia ni tak langsung...boleh dia kencing...saya kat sebelah aje.

After that, I tried to take my leave coz I got another class (tutorial actually) coming up. She wished me good luck studying and bye bye...

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But seriously...damn lot of idiots dont know how to keep the toilet clean. If go to the toilet before they clean...beside the toilet bowl got damn lot of tissue papers...once I was unlucky enough to meet with a lump of dried up shit! No matter how many times I flushed...it didnt move an inch. I even tried shooting it with the hose...still didnt budge! Seriously WTF! The fella must have consumed some kind of super glue.

Conclusion is, although many consider themselves as city or high class people but their toilet skills are below that of an animal! Even a dog knows how to cover their shit with sand...Such disappointment.

Over at last

I cant say i did very well in this finals but I guess it was okay...

After one week of somewhat continuous exams, I have many things in mind that I want to do...

1. Finish up my Angels & Demons
2. Catch up with One Piece (manga)
3. Watch whatever movie my roommate has that I am interested in
4. Dota as I wish
5. Basically spend most of my time in front of my pc
6. Prepare to shift to new apartment in Malacca

There is only one thing that is getting on my nerves right now...THE FREAKING LAGGING CONNECTION. Opening a website and waiting for it to load and in the end showing me "unable to load webpage" or "connection timed out" is just freaking ridiculous eventhough 7 peoples are sharing a 1 mb line. I know the reason why its lagging ike this...just trying to bare with it for a little longer...

Imagine watching your favourite show on astro and having some clouds causing interruption receiving signal...that's the frustration I am feeling right now...FUCK!

Someone's being a selfish biatch...

Expiry date...

Damn yesterday I forgot the most important thing of being a consumer...
CHECKING THE BLOODY EXPIRY DATE!

I bought a pack of pudding (3 cups inside) saying buy 1 free 1 (so total I have 6 cups) for RM5.90. Tempted by greediness, I took the pack without the curiosity to find out why is it so cheap...

Later when I got back, I opened one cup and it stinks horribly...then I realised the expiry date was one month ago. The worst part was that I treat my friend a cup...it was supposed to be a thank you treat for giving me medicine for my severe gastric recently. It's like giving poison to the person who just saved your life...

Guess where I bought it from...JUSCO! BLOODY MANAGER OF AYER KEROH JUSCO!

Holy Crap-ing

I am so not following my schedule...its supposed to be 3 days per subject and I will manage to finish studying by this next saturday but...I AM SO BEHIND SCHEDULE!

HOLY CRAP!!!!

The weather is not helping in any way...ITS SO BLARDY HOT! Makes me sleepy....

HOLY CRAP!!!!!!

OMG OMG...What am I supposed to do...How nice it would be to have a button that wipes away all pollutions around the world...then tomorrow will definitely be cooler...NAH!!IMPOSSIBLE!

HOLY CRAP!!!!!!!!!!*pulling my hair and clenching my jaws*

Anyone under any kind of stress or frustration, you are free to come and join me Holy Crap-ing but I am not to be blame if you lose your hair from pulling it or your teeth move out of place for clenching your jaw too hard..

HOLY CRAP!!!!!!!!ITS JUST A WEEK AWAY...

I better get some sleep...

24 hours diarrhoea...

Last two nights I had chicken rendang for my dinner and right after that, I was going to the toilet. I thought it was normal cause the serai in the rendang is supposed to make go easier...

After a few times of going in and out of the toilet, I was still telling myself "it's the serai"...then there is this stomachache like something twirling in my stomach. Couldnt get myself to sleep and I was still going to the toilet till about 4 am. The last was about 5 am before I got to sleep. Then about 9 in the morning, I went to the toilet again and continued sleeping till 12. Woke up and went to toilet again before I went to eat lunch. Went to TOILET again after lunch and a few more times after that until dinner...this time I only drank warm barley and a taufufa for dinner. Later, I went down to the minimart to get a loaf of bread and a bottle of marmalade jam and ate it as dinner. Was still going to toilet till about 9 pm...After that, my stomach was still hurting but didnt went to toilet anymore. I guess I have clear every single piece of shiet in my system, LOL.

Conclusion: Having a diarrhoe for 24 hours is not good especially for my butt-hole. IT HURTS LIKE HELL AFTER 5 TIMES OF GOING TO THE TOILET. And I went a total of more than 20 times to the toilet...And the bloody headache I got because of it also...

Lesson learnt: I guess I wont be touching rendang for quite some time....

I hate irresponsible idiots...

The day before, I got up and checked my mail for a mail I was waiting since the night before. When I downloaded the attachment inside the mail, I was anxious cause this is the last missing piece to complete our group assignment.

I unzipped the file and opened it...

While scrolling down, I was trying to make out what all of it means...While trying to make out a connection between the contents inside, I started to go, "Shit Shit Shit".

Then, I concluded that it was pure bullshit.

Now let me explain the group assignment we were supposed to do. It was about a part called Kant-Twist Clamp. We had to draw drawings of the assembly and individual parts to make up the assembly using a software called AUTOCAD. I devided the job and let the other members chose first and I took whatever that's left behind. We had two weeks to complete the assignment so for the first week I seperated the drawings of the individual parts.

After a week, everyone finished their drawings regardless whether it is good or not except one. SHe did not finish her drawing and her drawing is a bloody mess. "Nevermind", I thought and completed her drawing for her and editted. The second week, we moved on to phase two. There was assembly drawing, drawing to indicate the moving parts, adding templates and description. She chose to do description where her job is to find stuff regarding our assembly, Kant-Twist Clamp. I explained very detail to her about what she must do to describe our assembly. She even wrote down notes saying, "I better note this down so that I wont forget". She was partnered with another guy and the guy is supposed to send her his part for her to edit and add before sending it back to me.

So back to the mail. After confirming its bullshit, I typed Kant-Twist Clamp in the google search and clicked on the first search link. I looked at the website and WHAT THE FUCKED...Totally copied and pasted. Then I clicked "back" and then clicked on the second link...I went WHAT THE FUCK again...another copy and paste without any editting. The worst part of it all was that she copied from a company website promoting their products and so the "description" went like, Our unique and dependable products have been used by aircraft plants, etc etc... WHAT THE FUCK our product? Since when are we making the product? And the part where the guy was supposed to send to her and she was supposed to edit is nowhere to be found...

The first thing I did right after that was changing my msn nickname to, "BITCH...DIRECT COPY AND PASTE...BLOODY BITCH!". Then started re-doing the description part. Lucky for me I didnt have class the whole day cause final exams are approaching and some classes ended already. And so, I finished the job. Supprisingly, after finishing the job, I had no mood to call her up and screw her anymore...This time I changed my msn nick to, "I AM SUCH A FUCKING NICE LEADER...". I printed the assignment and copied a softcopy into a disc and handed it up this morning.

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The thing I really cannot understand is that how can she be so irresponsible and just slack off on her assignment like that. Yeah, she told me she was busy with other subjects and what not but have she ever put in a thought that she wasnt the only person that is busy with other stuffs...She cant even spend about 3 hours doing the description which I gave her 4 whole days to do? Come on...Now I see why being too good makes you get taken advantage of...

Why I got this eerie feeling someone is backstabbing me...

Lately today I got this feeling that someone is either backstabbing me or bad mouthing me behind my back...Shiet...Damn hate this type of feeling...

IF WHAT I AM FEELING IS RIGHT....WHOEVER THE HELL IT IS COME FORWARD AND TELL ME IN THE FACE WHAT HAVE I DONE TILL YOU DO THIS TO ME...

If what I am feeling is wrong...SHIT! I am being paranoid...

I hate having a running nose

Just last week I had a cold and recover from it...

Yesterday...the COLD CAME BACK! WTH!!
Started with sneezing then headache then watery nose and eyes...Shiet ah...
The headache and the sneezing part is what I cant stand...Well, it is 90% of the flu...
I hate getting flu....F.....lu-ed up
Haha...